I got a bit disheartened today. People wanting to talk about how they could push the guidance to stay home and stay safe. Why not, if its not "illegal ".
Why am I so happy and safe, when there is so much suffering.
Moment of enlightenment-code word moment- my ability to be happy, is not just for me.
It is to be shared with anyone who can't find it for themselves right now.
Practicing love, compassion, kindness, joy and equanimity, when it is easy, is to make it so, when it is hard.
As the busyness and outward layers are taken way, I see what is really important to me remains.
Love, compassion, kindness, joy, and being that, to and for myself and others.
As if there even is an other- there is no other- only us.
Which brings me to the gratitude of the day.
I am still teachable!!!
My spiritual director, when I whine about being unpartnered, says,
"living alone is a gift".
I say "I want to return it" And now I know it was practice for these times.
Hugs do not exist in linear time.
Every hug I've ever shared is still here for me when I need it.
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing.
How remarkable that i have everything I need and more, I am able to be myself, and do what I can- which is enough, no matter what is going on out there.
This is the privilege I bear and carry and share for the benefit of all beings.
I thought about Jesus losing it in the garden- Father, please take this cup from me.
On the cross- why have you forsaken me.
Faith can falter- no judgment, and someone who's faith has not, will be there to carry me through.
That's the other thing my SD says.
"Look at the history"
I got disheartened, angry, and I took a moment to go behind those emotions to the energy behind them, and had a good heart to heart with some trees.
All we really need, they reminded me, is love, and light, clean water and air, and love in our family.
There are lots of ancestors and descendants out there wanting to help and guide us.
The world I see is me- pushed out! and I can dream the world I want into being.
Embrace my own lunacy
Pray for help.
Please join me.