Peace and Providence Revisited-Wherein Robyn does not Sell Out

I had the opportunity last week, to say a few words and possibly insure financial security, beyond anything I had ever dreamed of.

A few words that might not be true.
We all lie. I have lied, because I thought I had to:
to protect myself
keep myself safe
to make someone like me
to get something I thought I needed.
Because, at the time I thought it was the right thing to do.

My rational, thinking mind, told me to do it.
"You are a good actress," it said.

I believe we are born knowing Truth; everything we need, to be:
Happy, Peaceful,Safe, Well and Free.
We are born powerful , all knowing individuals, one with the universe and God(dess).
Then we are taught to forget, by others, already forgetters of this Knowing, as they fear our power.

No one can ignore a newborn cry.
The first response is to comfort. The second to Silence.
Hush, hush, don't cry. don't call out your needs.
As we forget we become:
Sad, Angry,Anxious, Diseased, Enslaved.
So we start filling our minds, with  what others tell us is truth, thoughts and things that we are told will make us happy.

I  am in relationship with many who know everything.
They can never rest, as they  are the only ones who can do what needs to be done properly.
They can have no true friends as no one can think on their level, no one can be trusted.
Saddest of all, they can't enjoy the refuge of the Spirit-the letting go of all and letting in all the Love the Universe has to offer- just because you are you.

Notice in all of the above I haven't mentioned the Heart.

"Beloved," says the Heart, "be still and remember.
You are love and you are loved for who you are.
Do what you can.
Want what you have.
Be who you are."

I thank God(dess) for my faith that makes what I believe happen.
I give thanks for years of meditation practice with Honored Teachers that shows me the workings of the mind and the heart.

I give thanks for refuge in:
God(dess)
The knowledge of the Prophet Stream
The community of others seeking to develop the Heart.

I pray for all I do, to witness to the unconditional Love of the Universe for all.
I pray that all I do, that all I have, is for the benefit of all beings.
I have faith, that what I do, what I have, and who I am, is enough.

My heart says yes.
Yes to Love and Life and Light and more Love.

I am so glad, dear readers that you are in my heart.

Comments, questions and prayer requests always welcome.

I Love My Life

As threads intertwine on the spindle, loom and needles so the colorful days of my life weave together to create the beautiful cloth of being.

Some threads are more colorful, some weak and break. I learn and grow from challenge, cry and crack open from sorrow and loss, am encouraged by success and humbled by mistakes.

Everything contributes to the tapestry equally.

The blessings of family and friends have carried and supported me through it all, with Divine assistance.

If I had to describe my life in only one word it would be Love.

Take time today to celebrate all life.

comments and prayer requests always welcome.

Your Own Will

As an uninsured person living in a county with a governmental religion of wealth, I spend a lot of time seeking medical care that I can afford.

I am very grateful to have found compassionate Healthcare in Asheville at Three Streams Family Health Care and I strongly recommend anyone without a Primary Health Care provider in the area to give them a try.

I was in need of some specialized gynecological care and was referred to MAHEC where I was blessed to receive caring, compassionate, expert care that I could afford.
The information form I filled out was more detailed than any I ever experienced.

"Have you ever had sex against your own will", stopped me in my tracks.

The available answers were, check mark , yes, or no, neither of which felt sufficient .

I sat for a long time wondering what it means to do anything against your own will.

Where is the communal ,covenant  cross over of my will and the will of the universe? the will of another being? the will of God(dess)?

I recently found myself in a compromised physical situation and am again thinking a lot about what is my own will. I believe God's will for me is whatever my heart desires. I'll call you when I get clear on that.

I would love to hear folks response to this query, here in comments, or send me an email- you can find my email in my google profile.

Praying without Ceasing

The perfect time to pray, is now.
Aloud or silent, day or night.

Still and centered, regardless of outward circumstances I can retreat into the sacred prophetic stream of wisdom and silence.

Prayer is communion, community, refuge, grace, redemption and renewal.

The more I practice the easier it is to pray constantly, as I breathe in and breathe out.

Prayer is the language of my soul.

"When my prayer practice is more about being than doing, my life becomes prayer"
Daily Word, July 10, 2012

Join me any time.
Comments and prayer requests always welcome.

Right{(ous)ness}, Honesty, Truth

If I have to be right and we hang out for any period of time, that will make you have to be wrong.

Listening as openly as I can, to friends I love, defend their right-ous-ness, with learned text and spiriual writings, that prove others are bad, wrong, evil, worthy of hate ; I can't be certain that they are wrong in fact and my heart, head and soul tell me that there is error in their certainty.

Just as worrying has never helped a concern in my life, rightness has never brought me any thing of value or comfort.

Honesty and standing for what I know to be Truth has.

What I know to be Truth leaves space and freedom for what you know to be Truth, even if our words don't match.

I listen in the silence to find the words that can share what Faith and Spirit share with me.

Kindness
Compassion
Love

We all know the story of David and Goliath. Even people who don't go to church, read the Bible or say they believe in God, know the story.
The little guy defeats the big guy.

I don't think this story is about rocks and swords.
I think it is about how when David brought his faith into the story, this faith was stronger and bigger than what the Philistines thought was right.

I practice what I believe, what I put my faith in :
Kindness
Compassion
Love

So that when I need faith,in things unknowable and unseen,. I can use it, can call on it, to do what reason and logic say is wrong.

I practice faithfulness when it is easy so I am not alone when it is hard.

Oh, star dwelling ones,
Please be with us.
Give us your vision to see the Lighted path of peace and freedom.
I put my faith in kindness, love and compassion.
I believe in miracles.
Please help me to be one.
Please help me to witness and testify to goodness and Light
Even when it is hard and everyone else is right and I am wrong.
Even when everyone else is bigger and stronger than me.
Even when there is evil all around us-
Please help me to believe Love is the way.
Thanks you very much.

Comments  and  prayer requests always welcome.

Salvation

After I don't get the paying job,  I'm often told, "we need your presence."
Thanks for the kind words, and I trust that in some way that will put food on the table.
The history is that it does.
Humbly and in Truth, it is not my presence you need.

Community, humanity, longs for the living presence of unconditional love in the flesh.
This is our one true birthright- no strings attached.
Just take that first breath and it's yours. No matter how many times you deny it, turn your back on it, curse it.

There is nothing, absolutely nothing that can separate you from God's Love.
I pray daily that I make that Love visible just by being myself.

Salvation- keep reading.
Thinking of God as a person places her out there somewhere and we waste our energy trying to find her, seek her.
Over and over Jesus and others remind us the kingdom of heaven is within us.
We are one body, one spirit.
We are the body of Christ.

Every time I choose positive thought, right action, kindness, I am saved from the effects of negativity.
Saved from the only sin I know- separating myself from God, the One.
There is no final salvation, Thanks be.
Salvation is a daily, second by second, process of choosing life, happiness, peace, kindness, wellness.
This takes practice and Faith.
You must be awake and aware.
You must be attentive to the will of the Spirit and attentive to all voices.

The miracles we read of Jesus are the result of the practice of staying close to God
 and
living in a willingness to be eternally open and changing
 and
Willing to be living witness to universal unconditional Love.

If this confuses you, disturbs you, delights you- leave a comment.
Together we can claim our birthright be the presence the world needs.

Prayer requests always welcomed.

Members One of Another

The Women's Bible Study of the Church on the Street Where I live is studying the Beatitudes. This is a group of highly educated woman who also are willing to listen for the living word of the Spirit and to speak from their hearts. I always learn and leave these gatherings refreshed, excited and renewed in Spirit.

Last month they listened as I rambled on "Greatly Honored are the Pure at Heart", and this week we studied "Greatly Honored are the Peacemakers".
I read from James

13 Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good life let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom. 14 But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast and be false to the truth. 15 This wisdom is not such as comes down from above, but is earthly, unspiritual, devilish. 16 For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. 17 But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason,willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without uncertainty or insincerity. 18 And the harvest of righteousness is sown in peace by those who make peace. 

Emphasis  -open to reason, willing to yield- mine.

The next morning at a community gathering a Circle member asked to speak with me and with a full and open heart asked me how am I able to be open to reason, how to yield when  your community and congregation seem to hold beliefs different than your own. 


How to be willing to yield when you know you are right.


I listened and prayed and we talked.


If I have to make a choice between kindness and being right, I choose kindness.
Right and wrong are judgement statements and it's not my job to judge. Thank God!
I can think of many times I have been judged by others and how it made me feel, especially when I felt I was wrongly judged.
So in community with others, friends and enemies, first I hold the commandment to love all beings as I love God, and when this seems impossibly hard, I can think I how would feel if I was told I was wrong.


I'd rather be in relationship than be right. Only in relationship can we continue to hear each other and be open to the everyday miracles of hearing anew, changing our minds.


There is no end to how big our hearts can grow when we can stay open to each other no matter what words we profess to believe.

I'm grateful for this community I find myself a part of, learning, listening, freedom to speak and worship openly,prayer and acceptance. Faith too.


Comments and prayer requests always welcomed.

Praying for Others/Prayer Requests

The best way for me to deal with my own prayer needs, especially when I find it hard to accept outward reality is to pray for others.
This week I received more than 10 prayer requests from friends and acquaintances.
I set aside an hour a day to practice praying for others.
The act of prayer blesses and is a gift for all beings.
Focusing on praying for others, I put my own concerns to the side and send loving kindness and compassion to friends,  situations and issues, known and unknown.
Centering on the Oness of all, and letting go of attachment to outcomes, I feel free and filled with Light.
I pray for the Highest Good for All.
Breath in pain and suffering.
Breath out Love and compassion.


Make my day. Leave a comment with your prayer requests.I need the practice.